Father’s Day was last Sunday, and was very difficult for me. It is hard for most people to conceptualize, but being in the presence of other families who carry on their public lives in a relatively pleasant manner is a painful reminder of my own missing wife and children. It didn’t help that the Vacation […]
2025-06-02 A Recap and Way Forward
It has now been just under 9 months since I have last seen my wife Tori and grade-school kids Victor and Mia. I have probably paid the full price for what I have done. But, I’ll get to that. Recap To save you reading the last 8 emotionally-drenched, meandering posts, I’ll give a summary of […]
2025-05-04 May the Force of Goodness Bring Shame
What I Did On Star Wars Day, I think I’ll share a buzzkill of an update. May not only the Fourth be with you, but also the Fifth (of vodka), the Sixth (of man), the Seventh (of God), and maybe an Eighth (if you’re into marijuana). I am awaiting God’s deliverance, on His timing. A […]
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2025-04-14 Annihilating Nihilism
What I Did A few days ago, I grieved both my kids’ birthday. I still don’t know where they are, and nobody connected to Tori or the kids has given any information whatsoever. I’m starting to get worried if they’re still okay, since all I have is a cryptically-worded email sent to me mid-September from […]
2025-03-08 Ending Stoicism
What I Did As of today, it is the 6-month anniversary since I lasted interacted with Victor, Tori, or Mia. The consequences of the September event have slowly worked to ending my career as an insurance agent, and I desperately hope this is the last of the punishment I must endure. Please excuse another long […]
2024-12-21 Three Traditions
What I Did Nothing much to speak of has happened lately. Life has been steadily marching onward. It’s very difficult for me to get up and do anything these days, but it will probably get easier once I get past the darkest day of the year (December 21st), and get past this Christmas. To recap […]
2024-11-23 What I’m Thankful For
What I’ve Learned This Thanksgiving, we all have something to be thankful for, and I believe as a Christian it goes beyond the scope of something that’s nice to do, and almost veers into the realm of responsibility. Upon reflection, I have so, so much to be grateful for, even though my outward circumstances would […]
2024-11-16 Demythologizing Narcissism
What I Did Irrespective of where Tori and the kids have gone, each day has to transpire, with 24 hours like the last. In light of that, I have been marching forward in my de facto singleness, with a few public offerings: What I’m Feeling My emotions are vacillating, but somewhat stabilizing. It’s devastating that […]
2024-11-08 The Beginning of the Aftermath
Since it’s the two-month anniversary of the September 8th event, I figured it would be worth updating everyone. To start with, I would like to thank everyone who has prayed for me, and God has guided me through what, I believe, is the darkest part of this season. I won’t divulge names, but I am […]
2024-10-30 A Long, Broken, Unfinished Story
What I Did & What I Learned This is a story of domestic violence. I never thought it would be part of my life after I escaped my childhood, but it has come back after nearly 20 years of dormancy. This is a long story, and I don’t think it’s possible to pare it down […]