What I Did As of today, it is the 6-month anniversary since I lasted interacted with Victor, Tori, or Mia. The consequences of the September event have slowly worked to ending my career as an insurance agent, and I desperately hope this is the last of the punishment I must endure. Please excuse another long […]
2024-12-21 Three Traditions
What I Did Nothing much to speak of has happened lately. Life has been steadily marching onward. It’s very difficult for me to get up and do anything these days, but it will probably get easier once I get past the darkest day of the year (December 21st), and get past this Christmas. To recap […]
2024-11-23 What I’m Thankful For
What I’ve Learned This Thanksgiving, we all have something to be thankful for, and I believe as a Christian it goes beyond the scope of something that’s nice to do, and almost veers into the realm of responsibility. Upon reflection, I have so, so much to be grateful for, even though my outward circumstances would […]
2024-11-16 Demythologizing Narcissism
What I Did Irrespective of where Tori and the kids have gone, each day has to transpire, with 24 hours like the last. In light of that, I have been marching forward in my de facto singleness, with a few public offerings: What I’m Feeling My emotions are vacillating, but somewhat stabilizing. It’s devastating that […]
2024-11-08 The Beginning of the Aftermath
Since it’s the two-month anniversary of the September 8th event, I figured it would be worth updating everyone. To start with, I would like to thank everyone who has prayed for me, and God has guided me through what, I believe, is the darkest part of this season. I won’t divulge names, but I am […]
2024-10-30 A Long, Broken, Unfinished Story
What I Did & What I Learned This is a story of domestic violence. I never thought it would be part of my life after I escaped my childhood, but it has come back after nearly 20 years of dormancy. This is a long story, and I don’t think it’s possible to pare it down […]
2024-09-04 A Felony Postmortem
What I Did FRONT-END – I’ve now made a few neat little essays: I’m particularly proud of the networks essay I’ve been chewing on. BACK-END – I reorganized what I have left. Things have now simmered from manic anxiety into a type of flow. What I Learned I have wallowed in a state of incessant, […]
2024-08-12 The Value of Devaluation
What I Did Well, I’ve updated my toolbox to conform to my present set of essays. I’ve also edited through half of my portfolio site here and the AdequateLife essays. What I Learned On the mental level, our lives are an incessant dopamine flow. We engage in activities that we interpret as having significance, the […]
2024-08-02 Dopamine Privilege
What I Did I can finally say I’ve paid off all my technical debt. This may be the largest intermediate-stage project I’ve ever done without it creating any directly observable output. The consequences of this project have not paid out for me yet. I have had to fight multiple existential battles the past few weeks, […]
2024-07-14 Obsessive Deficient Attention Disorder
What I Did More tedium, more misery. However, I can say that I’ve successfully wiped out the most terrifying portion of my project: the Unknown-I-Don’t-Know-What-I’ll-Do-With-This pile. Most notably, I ran across this particular vast repository of information. Parsing it has been a stress test of my current system, and has yielded me quite a bit […]
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